To whom it may concern

These past few days had been wonderful, exciting, and to some extent, too good to be true. Maybe things happened too fast, and I was literally out of control. I lost my principles, the very guiding force which had propelled me to where I stood a few days back. It was probably the best thing which had happened to me all these years. Until one single moment of pure stupidity!!

I didn't think before I act. My mind was clouded and polluted with evil. And although this was the first time I had committed a sin of such magnitude, I now stand at a junction where I could lose everything. Lose a friendship, lose myself, my confidence, trust, self-esteem. But the worse part is that I offend and hurt someone who happens to be the last person on this earth that I would ever want to hurt!

I am not here to make an excuse for my actions, for I clearly know that there is none. I know that it's my fault. All mine! I should never have allowed the evil in me to express itself. Maybe it hit me on a weak point which I never knew existed inside me before. But even then, I should have been prepared for everything, including the unseen. And I hate myself for being such a weakling. I made a scar, a potential obstacle and a dirty reminder for the future. A big ugly scar which could probably hurt a person for a long long time. I am helpless, for I cannot change the past, and I guess I have to be prepared to face whatever the consequence may be.

The ball is not in my hands. Help me, O dear Lord! All I am asking is for a chance to prove myself once again. It may take days, weeks, or even years. I don't care, as long as I get the chance within this life-time. And if I ever do commit such a mistake again, I might as well just vanish never to be seen or heard again. This is a prayer, a promise I make with utmost sincerity from the bottom of my heart.